Cheers Darlin'

Ups and Downs

2006-03-01T22:34:45Z

spring break in two days.
friends, gym, skiing, beer, tubing, snow, beer again.
I'm happy.
I'm a million bucks.
Today is a good day.

please press fast foward

2006-02-21T23:15:15Z

I just don't know anymore.
I just don't have any hope
FOR ANYTHING
School, Friends, Family, Myself.
Life is one big lie.
One big motherfuckin' lie.
I'm just so tired of everything, I have no hope.
I wish it could all stop, I wish I could rock myself to sleep and be stress free while I do it. I wish I could puke the pain away. I wish I could smile and actually feel it.
I wish being myself wasn't so hard

~

You can't always get what you want

S.O.S.

2006-02-17T18:48:02Z

I'm going to my cottage.
I don't want to go.
I can't even use my cell phone.
Please, shoot me.
NOW.

STACY'S "BIBLE" ON WEIGHT LOSS

2006-02-15T01:43:12Z

Weight loss, baby.
Weight loss here I come.
Starting February 15.
Ending May 15.
Goal: Lose 15 to 20 pounds.

In the next three months DO NOT:
Eat less than 3 slices of bread a day.(NO WHITE BREAD!)
No junk food. (Baton Rouge, McDonald, Chinese food, etc.)
No soft drinks.
No candies.
NO CHOCOLATE!
No cookies.
No snacking between meals-even if it's fruits or veggies.
No drinking more than once a week.
No coffee more than three times a week.
No cheese.
No dairy products. (ONLY skim milk)

BLAH BLAH BLAH

If any of these products are consumed, I must jog and burn an extra 100 calories.

THE END

disposable_part @ 2006-02-12T10:44:00

2006-02-12T15:47:09Z

I know who my REAL friends are.
I know who my REAL friends are.
I know who my REAL friends are.

For a long time I've searched for this feeling.

Thank you to those special people in my life.
You know who are are.

disposable_part @ 2006-02-11T14:33:00

2006-02-11T19:34:20Z

ALONE
ALONE
ALONE
ALONE
ALONE

DO I WANT THIS? NO, I DO NOT.

KEEP IT TO YOURSELF. I DON'T NEED IT.

disposable_part @ 2006-02-09T17:00:00

2006-02-09T22:13:05Z

I'm not listening.
To me your voice is void.
The stars are glistening,
which I cannot avoid.

I'm getting old,
Please find me.
I'm sure you've been told
How I'd like you to be.

My memories are blank,
But my eyes are built with tears.
On the day that it sank
Over the lonely years.

I'm getting old.
Please run from me.
You'll be alone and finally cold
You weren't who I thought you'd be.

The stars are dying,
Since you started lying.

Thank You

2006-01-29T15:58:58Z

I know what I want.
I know what I have to change.
My motivation is back.
My eyes are open to see the world, again.
I've spoke to someone who helped me.
I'm ready to go,
I can face my fears.
You'll see how much I've changed.
Afterwards everything will be a déja-vue.
For now, all I can do is listen to the song.

disposable_part @ 2006-01-28T23:14:00

2006-01-29T04:15:19Z

baby you're bad news and you're bad news,I don't care I like you
baby you're bad news and you're bad news,I don't care I like you
baby you're bad news and you're bad news,I don't care I like you

Friends

2006-01-22T01:04:58Z

Friends
It's such a small word with a huge meaning.
I honestly do not know where I'd be without them.
They mean more to me than anything else.
I hope you know how much you all mean to me.
I don't have to start naming everyone, because you know who you are.

I want to say a BIG thank you to Stacy Ann.
You've helped me with so much.
I can tell you anything and not feel ashamed.
You listen to me.
You show me what is right and what is wrong.
I try my best to give you the best advice.
I wouldn't want to lose you.
You're like family to me.
Je t'aime vraiment fort, grande soeur.
N'oublie jamais que tu es une personne formidable.
I'll always be there for you.
I'll be your guardian angel.

I LOVE YOU ALL.
THANK GOD FOR MY FRIENDS.

strangers are shadows

2006-01-18T22:45:11Z

Darkness took over her eyes around 5 o'clock.
A cup of chai tea held by cold hands. A distant melody coming from the falling rain. Street lights reflecting in deep puddles. Shadows moving across the streets.
There he was, walking in the rain.
From that moment on she became thoughtful.
The girl saw him walking home to a small family and being welcomed by a nice supper.
She stood by her side when he help a little baby in those powerful hands.
The girl watched him standing at the end of the alley on that special day. She stood by his side when he said: "I do."
The girl watched him drive to work, so he could help the sick.
She was there when the hospital called and told him he got the job.
The girl watched him grow old and take care of his family.
She was there when his daughter got married.
She was there when he said his last words to his lover.
Sound waves coming from a honking car traveled to her ears.
Reality it her at that moment.
He was who she wanted him to be like.
The girl realized that he is somewhere out there.
She smiled and walked away from the window.

disposable_part @ 2006-01-17T17:33:00

2006-01-17T22:44:46Z

STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY

PROCRASTINATING

Thank you Stacy Ann